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Well, it's almost the end of the first quarter, honestly, I'm probably going to fail Spanish Two for this quarter, but who knows? Maybe I'll pass the retakes for my tests and get an A, or that's what I hope for anyways. I'm so tired of dealing with school already, or more so the people. I like the friends I've made but [i slightly] dislike a few of them. Only the ones that are faker than my grandma's teeth.
I'm just [i so] tired of people being fake. At this new school, it seems the "trend" is either being two-faced or having a high ass ego. The freshman want to act like they scare me all the damn time, like fuck off. Maybe I just need to rant some- but seriously, could people be any better?
And also, why does everyone seem so proud of their darkest deeds? Someone tells me they've hit a vape once or they're higher than the ceiling and think they're cool now. Maybe I just don't understand it or something, but it's so stupid. And people think that having a rough family life at home is cool too, like yeah, okay. Some of it seems fake, but how can I say that when I'm going through some of the same things? I just feel that if you were somehow and/or someway being abused or bullied or just had a rough time that you wouldn't go telling every person you see in the hallway. Literally, I don't think any high school kid can help someone screaming, [b "my mom hit me last night"] (no joke) through the hallways. Go see someone or get help.
Rejection has seemed fun, I think. Unless I wasn't exactly rejected? I mean- he knows I like him and all but he hasn't said anything to me since Kylie told him that I was bound to ask him out. Guess I'll wait and see tomorrow- hopefully, things aren't awkward.
I never thought I'd be writing in a journal thread, but here it is. The "inside scoops of another user on ES." ES has been changing a lot recently, mostly just the users. All the new users I see every time I just take an unexpected break seem to be pretty friendly. Then again I mostly only ever have time to hang out and chat in the Chill Zone thread.
The sad thing is that most of my favorite people from ES have seemed to go missing or be taking a break, sadly. I hope to see them again one day, but only time will tell.