[size11 it feels like you hate me now. It’s what I probably deserve but I feel frustrated still. It’s my own fault, my own mistake, but damn does it bother me. Bothers me even worse that I don’t have the energy to try and fix it.

I’m very good at ruining things, that’s for sure. Fixing things? Not so much. Ah I’m just…. Tired I suppose. Insomnia seems worse as of late. That’s also frustrating.

I haven’t felt right since February. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. A fix seems impossible to find. Maybe I’m just stuck this way.]