[size10 i was tired of feeling angry and hurt. that's really all i ever felt for a while. seeing your name used to make me happy and, as dumb as it probably sounds, it gave me butterflies. but lately, all i felt was bitterness. i miss you, of course, but it isn't like we spoke often. and the last time we tried to do anything together, it didn't go well ... for whatever reason. i woke up the next morning to being kicked from the server. no explanation or anything. i was angry and upset that whole day, and that feeling never really went away.
i don't want to hold onto that anymore. it's awful to say, but it's easier to get over when i don't see a constant reminder of you. or of your relationship with honey. i'll just be honest. i've always been jealous of her lol. but it's whatever now.
i can't say that things are better off this way, for the both of us. i can't make that decision for you. i'd like to think it'd probably make your relationships easier. i won't be a dark cloud hanging over your head anymore. but well. it's not my place to decide or tell you how to feel about it.
i'm tired of the negative feelings in my heart and that's all there is to it. i'd like to be friends again one day, but i can't fully make that decision either.
I do hope you're ok. Having fun and smiling. I don't want you to be miserable, not in the slightest.]