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Caine sat back with her on the sofa. He felt her head against his shoulder. Caine put his arm around her, and pulled her in. Better to let it go. He stroked through her hair and watched the movie with her. [b “Let’s go somewhere. Can’t keep having space. Better we forget it and move on.” ] He said and would look back at her [b “Unless, there’s something you want to talk about that’s bothering you?” ] He asked her, meeting her eyes.

He’d get up, [b “I’ll make hot chocolate.” ] He’d go make it for them, with whipped cream. He put it in front of her and leaned back. [b “Hot springs tomorrow? Or should we go sight seeing and shopping?” ] He asked. He’d think back and really didn’t understand what she meant by threatening her. He’d frown to himself for a moment.

He'd meet her eyes and sighed, [b "Why do you feel like I threaten you?" ] He asked her.

When she said not to threaten her, she didn't understand how he didn't know what she was saying. She figured he thought it was just normal to tell her he'd fuck her in public without a hint of hesitation. Maybe that's why he said he didn't remember. He's threatened her a lot of times and yesterday he made her feel even worse with the harsh words he mentioned. About how slutty she was to his friends. SHe doubted he even looked at her like a normal human being.

[b "Okay, I won't"] she figured that was a side of him she'd just have to get used to. The strong force he used and his badmouthing. She held her breath and could see the look he had on his face. He looked as if she shouldn't be bringing up anything like that. Guess she won't be able to talk to him about those things.

Rai went to get the door and she'd set up the food on the table. She'd eat and glance up at him, figuring he probably didn't want to talk or spend too much time with her, but she did want to do something today. It'd feel like a waste of a vacation day if she couldn't do much.

He agreed to watch with her and she would sit on the couch with him as she scrolled through Netflix. She picked out a romance action movie. Maybe he'd like to watch something that had more action in it. She'd look up at him for a bit and then she'd go on a whim and lean her head against his shoulder for now. If he wanted to push her away, he could, but she felt like she could use some comfort. Anything. She didn't have anyone else to lean on anymore and hearing those words yesterday from him did such a huge blow on her confidence.

She was still mad he blamed her for cheating. But at least right now she could focus on the movie and just warm up a bit more. Maybe once they've both calmed down, they could continue exploring a bit.

Rai would look up at him [b "Would you be okay to go somewhere tomorrow? Or....did you maybe want to have more space?"] she asked, feeling like she needed to ask and find out.

Caine opened his mouth and then shut it, deciding what he was going to say might come out wrong. [b “Threaten you? I don’t recall ever threatening you.” ] He said, thinking about to the million of times he’s been threatened, or that scumbag threatening his mom and acting on it. Definitely, didn’t do that. He entirely didn’t understand what actions she was talking about. He acted the way he normally did with everyone else, and even from before he got into this lifestyle. [b “Not sure what you’re talking about but why not? And all you can do to help is not to bring up stuff like that.” ] He definitely didn’t want to experience reliving that nightmare. He could tell Rai didn’t have great empathy, which meant it would be easier to each her certain things that were necessary.

He heard the door, and he’d watch carefully until the door was closed. She came in with the food. He’d eat with her, it was rather quiet. He’d lean back against the chair. [b “Yea, that’s fine.” ] He said. He’d finish his dinner, and would take the plate to put it in the dishwasher. He grabbed a pack of chips since he was still hungry. [b “What do you want to watch?” ] He asked. He’d go the Tv and turn it on and login into Netflix, since they wouldn’t be able to understand the local cable. He wasn’t even to sure what kind of TV shows Rai liked to watch.

[b “I’ll let you pick. I’m not picky, as long as it’s not shows for toddlers.” ] He’d sit back into the couch and waited for her. He didn’t feel like going out, especially since he felt numb, to stop from feeling anything else. Ever since he met Rai, it seemed to come back and he hated it…because now he couldn’t really avoid it and forgot how much what happened to him made an impact. When things got bad, he remembered having his sister, Brook and sometimes Killian.

She heard him and would let out a soft sigh. They were running into the same problems and it wasn't fine, they needed to sit down and figure things out together if they wanted it to work out. [b "I don't either, but I guess we can talk it through and make some ground rules"] she suggested and wondered what else she could do. It wasn't really hard for her to get along with people that were at least able to meet her in the middle. Axel and Marcel were easy to get along with. She figured she just needed more time to understand Caine.

They went to the gym and she'd work out a bit, soon taking a seat for a bit to watch Caine. He waved and she saw a woman coming over to ask him for some help. Rai got up and she went to take a shower, not wanting to see that scene unfold. When she finished up, she waited for Caine and they headed back to the house.

She told Caine she wanted the same thing, soon changing into some sweat pants and a hoodie as she took a seat at the table. SHe glanced up at Caine and took in a deep breath, ready to talk this through. She heard him say what he wanted and Rai would just listen in and think if she could make that happen. She was indecisive, but she figured she could try and lower that as much as possible [b "Okay. I can try to do all of that. If you need my help with anything, you can also let me know. Like if I can do anything to help you not black out or something. If you don't threaten me or keep your actions in check, I'm sure I'll be okay. I don't think there'd be a reason for me to be afraid of you"] she told him, not having this issue much lately since yesterday.

Rai glanced up at him, wondering if that was all he wanted. [b "The rest I can figure out and we can talk about it when it comes up"] she suggested, figuring that'd be good enough.

There was a knock on the door and Rai would head over and bring the food in. She'd set it on the table and spread it out for the two of them. [b "This looks really good. I don't think I've had something like this before"] she opened up her meal and would start eating slowly, feeling much better they were talking through this and he wasn't enraged. [b "Did you want to do anything tonight? Maybe watch a movie and relax?"] she asked, figuring she shouldn't just be separating herself from him if he was trying to resolve things.

Caine peered back at her, and then would sigh [b “We keep running into the same problems Rai, I don’t think that’s fine and I’m not sure how to solve it.” ] He admitted, finding this to be difficult. He was comfortable with things a certain way, and the way he showed he cared was different then hers.

They would eat lunch, and then headed to the gym. He warmed up, and would get into lifting weights. Afterwards, to the punching bags which helped release a lot of frustration. He was sweating at this point. He caught Rai at the corner of his, watching him. He felt good that she was really working out, he needed her to after all. She looked nice in gym wear. Normally, he’d wink or flirt but he didn’t want to create any tension. He would wave and continue. A women came to him, asking for tips. He’d give her some but told her she’d have to find a trainer for helping. Normally, Caine would go for her but, he wanted to remain loyal.

He’d go shower and then meet up with Rai, take her back home. They’d make it back, and he’d order food, getting Alplermagronen, which was macaroni with cheese, potatoes and onions. He’d let Rai order what she’d like too. He still wasn’t sure if he was ready to talk but he knew he couldn’t avoid it.

Caine was in sweats, and a hoodie. He’d sit across from her and tried to run through his head on what the hell to do about this. Relationship problems- that was something he hadn’t had in many years. [b “I don’t know where to start.” ] He admits, looking at her, and sighed. [b “I don’t want indecisiveness when it comes to what you want from me within a short time span. I need you to be sure before you tease. Two, don’t ever bring up…that my one mistake will kill you. Got it? You’re not ignorant. If I start referencing anything related to events before, I will black out, mentally from PTSD, and live through it-again. Three, if you’re afraid of me, I’m not so sure this will work.” ]

She didn't feel good in the morning and when she saw Caine, she heard him apologized, but they exchanged some hurtful words. She held her breath and would continue into head out the door. She wanted to clear her mind and just focus on herself because she knew Caine had many issues he was still trying to take care of and get over. A lot of his personality came from his situations, but that wasn't easy to change. She also didn't know if she could get used to it if it made her feel like shit.

After a walk outside, she felt really cold when she came back. She would head into the kitchen to make herself some hot chocolate and grab a blanket to stay warm. As she sat on the couch, she took in a deep breath and glanced over at Caine, deciding to order them some lunch. [b "I'll come along"] she told him, wanting to get her mind off of things and she figured going for a run on the treadmill would help her out.

She nodded her head and placed an order for a toasted sandwich and some soup. She got Caine what he wanted after showing him the menu and then she would soon see him get the door and set the table.

She walked over and took a seat with him, surprised by his words. They have been dating haven't they? [b "What do you mean? We've been talking fine since before last night. I think we just have to get used to each other. That part always takes time"] she knew he hadn't dated anyone since his ex and she was sure he wasn't ever going to get over her, so what could she do? She wanted to say more, but she didn't have the energy to tell him how to date her. It was clear she wasn't the best at dating him either. He didn't seem that happy around her.

She took a bite of the sandwich and she would eat slowly until she finished up her soup. [b "Mhmm"] she'd speak, her mind going back to living at the farm with her uncle. She missed him. WHen Rai finished up, she'd hear him talk about talking in the evening. [b "OKay. We can talk in the evening"] she was so blindsighted that she couldn't even think about what they were supposed to talk about.

SHe set her dishes away and cleaned up before heading upstairs to change. She put on some leggings, running shoes, and a sports bra beneath a training jacket. Rai put her hair up into a bun and she'd head downstairs to wait for Caine. When he was ready, she'd let him lead the way, following him to the car.

A part of her kept quiet, unsure of what to say, and she felt like talking about anything would just increase his anger. Her eyes would look up at him and she'd wonder what he was thinking. Did he hate her? Was he going to break up with her?

SHe shook her head as they approached the gym.

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Rai ended up running on the treadmill for a while, going on a jog. She'd see Caine going over to the punching bag area. There weren't much people here, but there were a few to keep the gym noisy. She ran for about half an hour and then she went to lift a few weights and use some machines. When she finished, she went to meet up with Caine, taking a seat and drinking some water as she watched him work out. He looked really hot hitting the punching bag, sweat rolling down his neck and shoulders. She knew she couldn't take her eyes off of him, but was that feeling enough?

After waking up, that pain had dwindled down and his head was clearer than before. He spoke when he saw her, and sighed hearing her say the same words back to him. Fighting was getting nowhere. Rai would never be able to understand how severe the situations he’s been through and the impact it made. Another reason, he knew it wasn’t possible for him to be with another person.

He’d open up his phone , and really didn’t want to think about it. He’d browse and thought it would be a good time to get a workout in. He’d search up a gym he could use.

Rai came back shortly. She grabbed a blanket and sat on the other couch. [b “It’s lunch.” ] He reminded, and realized he had forgotten to eat entirely and he was hungry. [b “Order us lunch. I’m going to the gym after. If you want to come, you can come or you can stay. We’ll talk in the evening and I’ll keep my temper in check.” ] He decided, not knowing what more to do. He normally resolved problems right after sex. Sex was off the table with Rai because that was part of the problem.

He’d let her order what she wanted, and when it came in, he’d go get the door. He’d set it at the table for them. [b “I really don’t know how to date you. I was with Brook since I was a teen. I don’t know how to talk to you.” ] He admits, and remembering how he thought that Brook would be end game. He sighed, and would eat. [b “Hope that gym has punching bags.” ] He mumbled to himself, to let go that aggression all out.

[b "Should we talk here in the evening?" ] He asked her, not sure if going out would be wise.

When he said he grew up on the streets, she understood from the stories he's told. He lived through so many things and she knew he was the way he was because of them. She never poked fun at his past nor judged him for it. But it hurt when he mentioned she brought this shit on herself. This is what she got for saving him that night? A life of being invisible, being stuck on the run. How could he say that? [b "Yeah I did. I brought this all on myself. It's all my fault"] she glared at him, thinking it was selfish in his own way to blame it all on her.

She was so done when he mentioned how she was being selfish and her problems were nothing compared to his. Did he really think just upping and leaving like that wouldn't do anything to her? [b "I was being forced to kill you! You think I would have chosen that if other's lives were on the line?"] she tried to tell him, but then he pulled more words out and that was the last straw. [b "You make me sound like such a terrible person. Blaming me for cheating like it was only my fault? You think I was fine cheating? I blame myself for that everyday. You helped in that too. It wasn't all my fault"] she yelled back at him and snapped. She was done hearing his view of her. Some slutty selfish girl that hurt his friends and cheated to get what she wanted.

She glared at him and would hurry up the stairs to the bedroom. That was it. She didn't want to do this anymore. Didn't want to be in the presence of someone that saw her in that way. Why did he even want to date her in the first place, or try to save her if he saw her as trash.

Rai rubbed her eyes, tears rolling down her cheeks as she climbed into bed. This was turning out to be such a terrible trip. How did she think it was going to go perfectly. Why did she believe so hard that they'd be doing better after this week here. It didn't matter where they went. The truth was out in the open now.

Rai cried in bed, falling asleep for a few hours. When she opened her eyes, she felt so groggy, remembering what just happened. She didn't want to get out of bed, but she also didn't want to see Caine. NOt after all those horrible things he said to her. Instead, she went into the closet and grabbed her luggage. She started to put her clothes inside, packing it up. She tried so hard to accept all of the hardships he went through, how he constantly rose his voice, didn't care about what people thought of him, or just how intimidating he looked to others. She wanted to be there, but she felt like space would do them some good for now.

She got up and washed her face, putting her hair up in a bun as she grabbed a coat and headed downstairs. When she saw him getting up, she looked back at him when he spoke. She took in a deep breath and relaxed her tone [b "I know. I'm sorry too. You hit some really deep nerves and I don't know....if I can take all of that right now. I need some time to think and I think we can agree that we need a bit of space right now. I'm going to take a walk"] she put on her beanie and would step outside of the house. She'd walk down the street, passing by another cabin. She made her way to a bench that was right by a frozen lake and she just sat down for a while, watching the snowfall. She calmed down a bit more, realizing she was here in Switzerland. IN truth, she did want to look around more, so she ended up taking a step on the ice, gliding around in a circle. She smiled a bit to herself and pulled out her phone to take a picture of the pretty lake with the view of the mountain.

She wanted to send it to someone, but the only one she saw in her contact list was Caine. Rai held her breath and would just head back to the bench, seeing the couple from last night just inside the cabin. Were they here on vacation too? She made her way back to the cabin and would head inside, taking off her boots and then sitting by the fire. If Caine was still there, she'd grab herself a blanket and sit on the other couch. [b "Are you hungry? Should I order breakfast?"]

Caine gave her a long hard look at the mention of him having money, [b “I grew up on the streets. You brought this shit on yourself. No one put a gun to your head to save my life in the first place, and you kept clinging onto me. Does that refresh your memory? ] He called out, not feeling he should be taking all the blame for her getting into this mess.

[b “Wow Rai, are you the only one that can get hurt? Don’t compare you’re teenage girl problems to mine. You knew I had to leave, and I did it because of this fucking reason – to keep safe. You tried to fucking kill me, after I kept trying to save you even if it was at the expense of my own life. For one, I never dated those girls, but you cheated twice and hurt even one of my friends. You don’t act like you care who you hurt to get what you want.” ]
He snapped because it was clear to him that she couldn’t see outside of her own world. How much risk he was taking himself, how much it hurt him when he looked at him like he would force her into doing things.

Caine grew quiet for a moment. Then she said something that would cross the line again, and he didn’t want to be reminded of how one mistake… Afterall, Brook, his sister and niece were gone after making a bad deal that he was to naïve at the time to understand. It triggered a lot of anger and pain.

He remained gentle enough, since he couldn’t or wouldn’t actually harm her. He vowed not to be like that scumbag, so it struck when she looked at him like she was afraid earlier. He backed up, and went to go walk it off, grabbing a jacket, which he knew he should have done the moment the anger spiked in too far.

He found a convenience store nearby, and remembered moments, memories…what his mother told him, how everyone looked at him after. It was because of her, that all of this was coming back. He hate the physical pain that came with them. It felt real, like that bullet was still there. Ah- right forgot to take the pills with all that happening. He turned around, feeling nauseous. He found the pills in the first floor, chugged it before blacking out on the sofa. He’d black out for a few hours, waking up at early noon. He felt much calmer now and when he thought back, he’d get irritated again. He knew he let his anger fly out the rails.

He’d sit up, pushing his hair back and if he’d see Rai, he’d say, [b “I’m sorry for losing my temper, it hit deep nerves.” ] He’d say but didn’t know what more to say to that. He was upset that she look at him like anyone else that knew of his work, even after doing so much to protect her, and that she kept changing her mind so frequently.

When he scoffed, Rai knew that he was going to be really upset with her after the words she spoke. Then he started cussing and narrowing his eyes. Rai remembered the time when she made a mistake. WHen he shoved her back against the fridge. He came in closer to her and when he said he was sorry and called her a princess, it ticked her off. [b "I wasn't raised like a princess. I don't have all this money that you have. I know you do a lot to keep me safe, but remember? Who do you also brought this all on me? Not to mention the fact that I also saved your life that night in the rain"] she replied back to him, feeling like she shouldn't back down now.

His words hurt. He kept making this situation about how selfish she was. His thought of her was so low that she didn't even understand why he agreed to date her. [b "What the hell are you talking about? I hurt you? You know how much it hurt when you left me? I had other relationships..... yes, but how many girls did you sleep with? How can you not think that your actions also hurt me?"] she raised her voice in reply.

By now Rai felt so much anger and frustration that she didn't want to talk about the past, but then he finally brought it up. He met her eyes and she let out a deep sigh. [b "I told you how much I liked you. I liked that you care. That you try really hard.....I was still getting used to all the shit, all the danger and the parts of you that are broken but I still wanted in on it"] she glanced away, feeling like part of it she wanted to help him, but if he was taking it as a make belief version of him, then she was doing something wrong.

When she admitted that sometimes his actions scared her, she saw the look of pain in his eyes as he moved towards her. She felt him push her against the wall and she'd gasp a bit in surprise. Her blue eyes looked up at him, feeling him touch her cheek and lip. Was he threatening her again? This is exactly what she was talking about. How could anyone not be scared when they were treated like this.

She held her breath and would feel him tug on her hair. He wasn't responsible for anything that happened to her. He could do whatever he wanted to her, but she was still here because she knew he cared. Then he brought up much more scarier thoughts and Rai just slipped down from the wall, sitting on the floor. She kept silent because she didn't know what to say. How could she say anything after that? He could be very intimidating and not know it. HE didn't understand the actions he took weren't normal. She's never had a boyfriend demand attention like that from her before. It was new and it was scary. Especially since he could've killed her that time she tried to kill him.

Rai watched him head outside and she brought her knees up to her chest. How could she say or do anything right now. She guessed even the sight of her now would just make him frustrated and he'd probably make her aware of his frustrations by grabbing her hair again.

She sat on the floor and just buried her face into her knees. Now she didn't even think she'd be able to leave the house...or tour the country anymore. Caine was upset at her and she was still mad at him. How could she not give him fearful eyes? WHen he was mad, he was scary.

Rai left him alone for a while because she also wanted him to clear his mind and calm down. She eventually got up and went upstairs to the bedroom, pulling the sheets over her. She didn't want to do anything anymore and felt like maybe they should just head home early.

Caine scoffed, snickering at hearing the ‘way you talk’. It deeply irritated him, digging things up that should never be dug again. [b “You think I’d fucking force you?” ] He narrowed his eyes, stepping closer to her, [b “I’m sorry princess but I wasn’t raised with a silver spoon like you, this is how I fucking talk. I risked a lot to safe your ass, even after you tried to kill me and you still look at me like you’re afraid of me. Do you have any idea how much that fucking hurts? No, it’s because it’s because everything is about you, and you don’t think that your hurting me. You definitely didn’t with your other boyfriends.” ] He reminded, feeling downright mad because it touched a real deep spot.

He told her, if she acted indecisive again, he’d be done. He didn’t want that. He’d grab a coffee, keep himself distracted from losing it to his deep seeded problems. Using force, pushing and fucking in public. He leaned back against the counter, tilting his head and met her eyes [b “Why do you want to date then? I’ve been myself from the start. What you want is a make belief version of me.” ] He said.

He listened to her go on about being scared, what he was capable of. He didn’t see how she would translate as that would be something he’d ever do to her. Then- she struck a whole other nerve, about one mistake getting her killed. A spike of pain spread, making him close his eyes for a moment and set the mug down, feeling his anger spiking up. He went blank for a moment. He went up to her calmly, and then would push her against the wall, eyes down at her. He would touch her cheek, and graze his finger along her lip [b “First of all, I’m not responsible if you die. Don’t fucking ever bring that up again. Second, I could have done whatever the fuck I want to you, and get away with it.” ] He’d brush her hair back and then tug on her hair but not hard at all – just enough to grab attention, [b “But I haven’t. You don’t understand what fear is, Rai. I’d watch him chock her, beat her, hear him rape her. So don’t fucking look at me like you’re afraid.” ] He said, looking really pained, because it dug deeper than that.

Cine took a breath and backed up [b “I’m going outside… I need a drink, even a smoke if I can find one.”] Even though he had quit many years ago. He didn’t like being around anyone when his emotions were intense.

She didn't think he'd wake up and come down to argue with her, but when he did, she was surprised. She definitely was not expecting this first thing in the morning, but the last twenty four hours was confusing. He started going at it and telling her that she was being so indecisive. Rai let out a deep sigh and she would meet his faded eyes.

[b "Of course we agreed on it. It was supposed to help us. But we're also in a relationship, so when it got steamy, I couldn't help but remember the times we did it and wanted to. I'm sorry if it changed my mind, but the only reason I got scared was because of the way you talk to me. I see it. Sometimes you're not playing games. Sometimes you back me into a corner and I feel like there's nothing else I can do about it. I was startled when you spoke to me at dinner when I dropped the spoon. That didn't mean I was afraid and done for the night. It just scared me a bit from your tone"] she tried to tell him, but he looked really furious like he really was going to break something.

Then he said it. He didn't seem like he wanted to give her anymore time at all. [b "It's not just frustrating for you. I'm trying to figure you out too. I don't like guys who use force. Who push me down a mountain, tell me that you'd fuck me in public"] she felt like he hit a soft spot, but she tried to hold it in and stay strong. If he didn't like that she was this way, she didn't like the way he was either. If he didn't like her....why go through all this.

[b "I get scared. So what? I told you I haven't gotten used to this whole change in my life and I know what you're capable of. I'm sure there's things that scare you about being with me too. Like how one mistake can get me killed. I know you're scared of that. Or not sleeping with me because of what happened last time. There's so many things we're scared of. I want to get over those"] she tried to tell him. He went to get some coffee, but Rai just felt frustrated and hurt inside. His words hurt, so she decided to hurt him back a bit. She wasn't sure if it was the right decision, but with all the fighting, she didn't know if he'd even want to keep dating a timid and indecisive girl.

She set her mug into the sink and then glanced back at him. [b "So did you still want to do the itinerary today? Or did you want to take a break for a bit?"] she asked him, wondering if he still wanted to tour the city.

He figured if he couldn’t withstand how he normally was than there was no point to this anyway. At least she’d see it. He still controlled himself, otherwise it would be much worse. Caine scoffed at her talking about being it PG [b “That was something we both agreed on before. Then you kept bringing into making it sexual, so I shifted, and then you fucking suddenly changed your mind like you always do – looking downright scared, said no multiple times, and then again do a whole one eighty and tell me you do want to go into a bath me after all. That shit pisses me off. Make your goddamn mind. I’m sick of this game Rai.” ] Caine said, still standing from a distance from her, but oh he wanted to break an object or something.

Considering how she looked at him, it was clear to him she was scared. [b “You know what…” ] He shook his head, stroking through his hair, realizing how frustrating he was getting with her. He wasn’t so sure he wanted to give her more time because it felt like he was fucking or playing around with him. [b “If you don’t make a ninety-nine percent sure that you want what you want before telling me, I can’t date you anymore if you keep this up. It’s fucking frustrating. I don’t like girls who can’t make up their minds on what they want or someone who is timid.” ] He flat out said it, stripping out his blunt thoughts out. He felt it was better being honest with her, rather then constantly avoiding it and going on a lie. It wasn’t like he wanted to see her hurt or get hurt by him but, he felt it was better to be honest.

[b “And don’t lie to me. You were obviously scared. I can’t understand why, because I’ve never forced you into anything, or is it because of what you know about me that you’re scared?” ] He snickered and went into the kitchen. He wanted to drink even if it was early in the morning. He would get coffee instead because he knew it would be an asshole move to drink and get drunk right now. He’d look back over at her, waiting to hear what she had to say.

Rai was sitting on the couch, but when he said he was going to sleep, she just looked up at the sky for a bit longer, knowing it calmed her down a lot to try and just see the stars. Once she saw Caine return, she went upstairs to the bedroom and tried to just lay down and relax for the night, but she couldn't really fall asleep. She just kept thinking about how she was going to deal with Caine. He looked pissed and she didn't want to provoke him, knowing how scary he could get.

In the morning, she washed herself up and would head downstairs, seeing that he was still asleep on the couch. Rai walked carefully into the kitchen, making herself some coffee in a pot as she sat at the counter and took a few sips to warm her up. It was cold, the snow still falling outside and she knew that according to the itinerary today, they'd be out exploring. Would he still want to explore with her?

She called out his name and would hear Caine shift around and then he went upstairs. She'd look at her phone, going through some big tourist locations and wondering how far they were from where they were.

When Caine soon approached her, her blue eyes looked up at him, hearing him lay it all on the table. He kept calm and controlled, but using cuss words alerted her to know he was pissed. It made sense. They were both really confused yesterday about what would happen at night. [b "I wanted to be with you yesterday. Wanted....to have a romantic night and hopefully be intimate. But you kept talking about all the PG things we should keep up with and I figured that was the best for now. You haven't forced me into anything. It's just sometimes I know you're being serious and sometimes you say it in a way that intimidating. I know you planned and worked hard for me yesterday and I was really thankful for all of that. I was just disappointed we couldn't even continue whatever you had planned since I ruined it by showing that disappointment"] she told him and would sigh a bit.

[b "I didn't feel like taking a nice bath if you weren't going to take one with me. I just felt like I wanted to take a quick one. I'm not scared of you. I'm still getting used to the way you are. Just give me more time. Yesterday was more than good enough. It was a romantic date and I really appreciate it all, I just got a little startled when I dropped the spoon and heard we were keeping it all PG. I didn't mean to irritate you that much"] she tried to tell him, but she didn't know how much would go through either. He looked made and she wondered if he'd even listen to that kind of apology.