Sou is a very power man. He works for a popular magazine company. He is one of the head photograph. As he continue to work he finds this very attractive woman. Or at least he thought it was a woman. He found himself attracted to this woman. Only to find out that the woman wasn't a woman at all, she was a he. He still found him self attracted to him, but he knew that would disgrace his status. To he try his hardest to ignore his feeling toward him. Little did he know the man he was photographing actually had a crush on him. That made it even harder for him to ignore his feelings.

[font "century gothic" [#c61515 ✧ The profile picture I have for this character isn't my art credit goes to the original artist✧

Sou is married to his job, he also very dull minded when it comes to love.

Sou is a very power man. He works for a popular magazine company. He is one of the head photograph. As he continue to work he finds this very attractive woman. Or at least he thought it was a woman. He found himself attracted to this woman. Only to find out that the woman wasn't a woman at all, she was a he. He still found him self attracted to him, but he knew that would disgrace his status. To he try his hardest to ignore his feeling toward him. Little did he know the man he was photographing actually had a crush on him. That made it even harder for him to ignore his feelings.

[h3 About ]

Name| Sosuke Kurogane

Nickname| Sou

Birthday| February 29th

Age| 24

Species| Werewolf (but he can be a vampire depending on my mood)

Hair color | His hair is dirty blonde, it normally short and well kept

Eye color| Azure

Sex| Male

Sexual Origins| ...

Height| 6'0'

Weight|140lbs

Loves| Single

Married| Nope he still single

Relationship Status| Single

Family| ...

Weapons| Switch blade, or his werewolf form

Character Theme or Favorite song| Dance with the Devil ~ Breaking Benjamin

Character to remake

[font "century gothic" [#fa3d84 ✦] The profile picture I have for this character isn't my art credit goes to the original artist. [#fa3d84 ✦]

"I'll be the last thing you see before you die"

Kuro is a demon rabbit that was often made fun of before he got stronger. Now that he grown and is able to hold his own he is very dangerous. People still think he is a cute little rabbit. Kuro is very dull minded when it comes to love.

[h3 About Ill Omen]

Name| Kuro

Nickname| Usagi, Ku, Shi

Birthday| October 6th

Age| His appears to be in his early 20s

Species| Demon rabbit

Hair color| His hair is ebony color, he often lets it grow long

Eye color| Crimson

Sex| Male

Sexual Origins| Unknown

Height| 5'8'

Weight| 135lbs

Loves| ...

Married| ...

Relationship Status| Single

Family| He can't remember them

Weapons| Sicle or scythe

Character Theme or Favorite song| This is the Time ~ Nothing More

[h3 Likes and Dislikes ]

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Kuro before he made a deal with a demon
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[+red "I miss you already. I hate leaving you. Every time I leave you it pains me inside...I can't wait until we get to hang out again! I was think of asking for the 31st off and a couple days after that <3 Maybe have a long weekend."]

[+red "I feel very anxious right now....It a feeling that I feel often and I hate it...I really hope today goes okay..."]

Just something to hold on to.

Aiyoku if you like this plain format you can use it too.

Name ||

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Gender || Male

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"I'm making a character your just going to love <3"

These are the characters I think you will love <3

I just can't wait until I get to see you. My heart is beating with joy! I still have so much on my mind. Like one what to wear. I want my outfit to be perfect <3. I really hope you like my cooking! I've come to notice that your the most important person in my life. Your always on my mind. I always worry if I don't hear from you. I know you get busy <3 but I love hearing from you!


[+red <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 ]

I figured something like this would happen. I should have made you come inside. Mom and dad would have taken you home. I'm about at my last straw with him. These things aren't going well. I feel you may get hurt and I won't stand by and let that happen. He shouldn't just snap at you like that it's not okay.

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[+lightblue Name || Wolfgang

Nick-Name || Wolfe

Age || 25

Birthday || December 25th

Birth-Stone || Tanzanite

Spirit-Animal || Wolf

Specie || Werewolf

Height || 6'0'

Weight || None of your business

Gender || Male

Sexual Origins || Homosexual

Loves || [http://rp.eliteskills.com/vc.php?c=364693 Vance]

Married || He is actually married to Vance but he has a hard time expressing his love

Weapons || Werewolf/ wolf form, his teeth and claws

Favorite song || The Otherside ~ Red Sun Rising

Extra || Wolfgang is a very powerful man. He just taken over his father company but with one condition. He had to marry before he could become the owner of the company.
[+Darkred Name || Enzeru

Nick-Name || Ru

Age || Unknown

Birthday || December 21st

Birth-Stone || Turquoise

Spirit-Animal || Hawk

Specie || Seraphim

Height || 5'9'

Weight || 140 lbs

Gender || Male

Sexual Origins || Bi sexual

Loves || His master

Married || Not yet ( he really hoping his master give him a ring)

Weapons || Katana that he keeps at his side at all times

Favorite song || Not Strong Enough ~ Apocalyptica ft. Brent Smith

Extra || Enzeru is an angel with six beautiful wings. He was caught by a strange man but has been well taken care of. Although the man could be rather cruel at time he was very loveing.
[+magenta Name || Kira Yamaguchi


Nick-Name || Bunny


Age || 18


Birthday || February 13


Birth-Stone || Amethysts  


Spirit-Animal || Fox


Specie || Human 


Height || 5'1'


Weight || Unknown  


Gender || Female 


Sexual Origins || Bi sexual 


Loves || She had no one to love (her pet vampire)


Married || Never thought about it 


Weapons || Knitting needles she keeps hidden in her sleeves 


Favorite song || The World is Mine ~Miku Hatsune ( I like Juby phonic cover of it)


Extra || Kira is a very powerful girl. Her parents are very wealthy. She is very smart and has her mother's beauty. She tents to be very aloof to the vampire that has lived in her house for years.She secretly love him but would never admit that to anyone.

[+DeepPink Name || 凶兆 Kyocho 


Nick-name || Kuro


Age || 600 (but he only looks like he is in his mid-twenties )


Birthday || November 6th


Birth-Stone || Citrine


Spirit-Animal || Rabbit


Specie || Demon-Rabbit


Height ||5'8'


Weight || Unknown 


Gender || Male 


Sexual Origins || Bi Sexual


Loves || Taiyo (he just don't know it yet)


Married || ...


Weapons || His ebony sycthe 


Favorite song || Words as Weapons ~ Seether 


Extra || Kyocho who is often nick-named Kuro. He died when he was 23 years old before he died he made a promise with a demon. The demon brought him back to life taking his left eye as part of the deal. Before he died he was a human that often cared for a black rabbit. 
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Name || [+red Okami (Okami is the Japanese word for Wolf] || [+Orange Ikari  (Is the Japanese word for Rage) ]


Nick-Name || [+Red ...] || [+Orange ... ]


Age || [+red Appears to be in mid-twenties] ||  [+Orange He is the same as Okami]


Birthday || [+red February 21st ] || [+Orange  Same day as Okami]


Birth-Stone || [+red Amethyst] ||  [+Orange Bloodstone ]


Spirit-Animal || [+Red Wolf] || [+Orange Big Cat]


Specie ||  [+Red Wolf that can shape-shift] || [+Orange Cat Demon]


Height || [+Red 5'0'] || [+Orange (Depend on what gender he is )]


Weight || [+red Unknown ] ||  [+Orange "Not telling"] 


Gender ||  [+Red Female] || [+Orange Male (they can shape-shift so they  both become the opposite gender)]


Sexual Origins ||  [+red Bi Sexual ] ||  [+Orange Doesn't matter to him]


Loves ||  [+Red "It's a secret" ] || [+Orange "None one"] 


Married || [+red She always dream about it since she was a teenager]  [+Orange "Don't Make me sick..."]


Weapons ||  [+Red Katana that blade is a bright red color] || [+Orange Anything he can get his hands on. But he often uses a sword similar to Okami]


Favorite song ||  [+Red ] ||  [+Orange]


Extra ||


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[h3 [font "century gothic" [center Wolf ]]]
Okami is a wolf that is very quiet and friendly. She often get hurt but she had a faithful cat that will come to her aid. Altho that cat is faithful to her he often the reason why she is hurt.


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[h3 [font "century gothic" [center Cat ]]]
Ikari is a cat demon. He often stick up for Okami but will also turn on her if he angry. He has a hard time controlling his anger.


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[h3 [font "century gothic" [center Fox ]]]
They become fox when they a together. The fox they become is very unstable. He lust for blood and will kill almost anything that step in it's path. The fox has human for but it is just as unstable and violent as the fox form it take.


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[center "Art on my profile isn't mine. Credit goes to the original artist!" ]

[+Purple Hanadaka  is the Japanese word for Pride 


Name || Hanadaka


Nick-Name || Hana 


Age || 17


Birthday || August 15th


Birth-Stone || Peridot 


Spirit-Animal || Lion


Specie || Silver lion 


Height || 5'7'


Weight || 140 lbs 


Gender || Male 


Sexual Origins ||  Bi Sexual 


Loves || ...


Married || Someday 


Weapons || His claws and teeth 


Favorite song || It Ends Tonight ~ All The American Rejects | Prayer of the Refugee ~ Rise Against 


Extra ||Hana has two brothers that drive him mad. They make fun of him for his hair color. When he changes into a lion his mane isn't all full as their's. They love to tease him about it. He decided he finally had enough. He moves out to live with his friend that is 23 years old.

[+Orchid Setsuyoku is the Japanese word for abstinence]


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Gender || Male 


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Extra ||

Kenkyo is the Japanese word for Humility


Name || 


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Gender || Male 


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[#fdd3ea Konki is the Japanese word for patience


Name || Konki


Nick-Name || Kon or Ki


Age || 22


Birthday || January 1st 


Birth-Stone || Garnet


Spirit-Animal || Owl


Specie || Human 


Height || 5'8'


Weight || Uknown 


Gender || Male 


Sexual Origins || Homosexual 


Loves || ?


Married || He has thought about but he hasn't found the right person 


Weapons || Daggers that he has kept hidden on him


Favorite song || 


Extra ||

Evren

[center Name || Briar Wren
Nick-Names || Ren
Full Name || Briar Alan Wren
Age / Birthday || 28 / October 9th

Sex || Male
Sexual Orientation ||
Relationship status / Loved Ones || Unknown
Species ||

Hair color / Length ||
Eye Color ||

https://roleplay.cloud/role_play_145686 
Holding on to these. 
[https://roleplay.cloud/role_play_145686 link ]
https://roleplay.cloud/role_play_143231
[https://roleplay.cloud/role_play_143231 link ]

[+HotPink Tansei is the Japanese word for diligence 


Name || Tansei


Nick-Name || Tan


Age || 23


Birthday || January 6th


Birth-Stone || Garnet 


Spirit-Animal || Tiger 


Specie || Human (but he can turn into a tiger when he needs to)


Height || 5'7'


Weight || 


Gender || Male 


Sexual Origins || 


Loves || 


Married || 


Weapons || 


Favorite song || 


Extra ||

[+Purple Hanadaka  is the Japanese word for Pride 


Name || Hanadaka


Nick-Name || Hana 


Age || 17


Birthday || August 15th


Birth-Stone || Peridot 


Spirit-Animal || Lion


Specie || Silver lion 


Height || 5'7'


Weight || 140 lbs 


Gender || Male 


Sexual Origins ||  Bi Sexual 


Loves || ...


Married || Someday 


Weapons || His claws and teeth 


Favorite song || It Ends Tonight ~ All The American Rejects | Prayer of the Refugee ~ Rise Against 


Extra ||Hana has two brothers that drive him mad. They make fun of him for his hair color. When he changes into a lion his mane isn't all full as their's. They love to tease him about it. He decided he finally had enough. He moves out to live with his friend that is 23 years old.

[+LightBlue Namakemono is the Japanese word for Sloth]

Name || Nanami
Nick-Name || Namakemono or Momo

Age / Birthday ||
Birth-Stone ||
Spirit-Animal || Sloth

Species || Human?
Height / Weight ||

Gender || Female
Sexual Origins ||
Loved one / Relationship status || Unknown / Single

Weapons ||

Favorite song ||

Extra ||

Username: Luki

Name: Cecil Lovell

Age: 27 - 29 (She doesn't look it)

Height: 5'2'

Appearance: She has mid-length hair that she currently has dyed blue. (Naturally she is a pale brunette.) Her eyes are blue with hints of green in them. She has pale skin, due from working inside. She is fit but rather slender, she often forgets or skips meals. Depending on the day she often in formal attire considering she is at work. When she not at work she wears ripped jeans a t-shirt and over sized jacket.)

Talents: She can communicate/ control with animals

Family: Her parents aren't anything special just a couple of country hicks. That adopted her when she was a baby.

Weapons: "Now wouldn't you like to know!" (She keeps a knife hidden on her. Also the ability to communicate / control with animals )

Powers: Shape-shifter (She prefer to shift into animals rather than people. She can take on the appearance of people but there always something off when she take their form)

Secrets: She loves animals, is obsessed with studying Qrow. Likes the color pink. Painting she just loves to paint.

Occupation: Therapist / Nurse (part time painter )

Augments:

Bio:

[size10 Ugh... Hank just peed on his cat bed... I take his litter boxes are too dirty... I need to clean them... I still have his lingering cold...

[pic https://i.imgur.com/lFy9dqf.jpg?1]

... What did I do now... What did I do wrong this time...


I don't hate your car idea... it is a beautiful color... I haven't been inside to say if I hate it or like... why would offer to ask my dad to help you .... if I hated the idea so fucking much...


Why don't I snap or snarl at you? Why  because it only make things worse... What is really wrong... am I not trying enough... it is that it... What is it... do you not love me any more...


[Youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oN2DjhJ-Lxw ]
[Youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abPWqIGMico]

beautiful quotes to hold on too.

❀ "It's hard to accept the Truth...When the Lies were exactly what you Wanted to hear..." ❀


❀

❀ "People find comfort in the Darkness...because it is the only thing that never leaves...No matter what." ❀

Just one bite

The angel with red wings was said to be able to lift the cruse of being a vampire. Many vampires had spent years even centuries looking for the angel with red wings. It seemed pointless at first.

That was when you noticed her. Suiren Akane was her name, it was a pretty name but it really didn't seem that important to you. All you knew was she was going to be your next meal. You cornered her, when she was all alone. It felt like heaven sinking your fangs into her soft skin. Her skin easily broke open under your sharpe fangs.

That was when you noticed something. This woman's blood tasted different. You even started to feel different. You felt alive again which was something you hadn't felt in years. You could feel your heart being in strange away. Was this they the wing angel you had been searching for? What would you do would you keep her for yourself or bring her to the rest the vampires that had been search for her?

This is the rough idea have in mind.

[center [size13 [+Lime Name || Midori
Nick-Name Midori-Chan / Kiki 
Full Name || Midori Hayashi


Species || Neko mix 
Age / Birthday || He appear to be in his late teen to early twenties / May 10th 
Sex || Male 
Sexual Orientation || Pansexual 


Relationship status / Loved One || Single
Family / Children ||  He doesn't remember his family / None


Hair color / Length || His hair is half neon green and the other half is black. 
Eye color || Lime green
Height || 5'7'
Weight / Build || Slender 


Extra ~ 
Weapons || Anything he can get his hands on 
Piercings || Navel , Snake bites, Madison (Throat / front of the neck piercings), and tongue 
Glasses || None
Tattoos / Markings || Unknown
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[+Orange Okui is the Japanese word for Gluttony 


Name || Okui 
Nick-Name || He doesn't have one 


Age/ Birthday || 27 / June 6th 
Birth-Stone || Pearl 
Spirit-Animal || Boar (pig)


Specie || Human 
Height || 5'3'
Weight / Build  || Slender but he does have some muscles 


Gender || Male
Sexual Origins || Bi sexual 
Loves || ? 


Weapons || His knife that he keeps hidden on him. 
Favorite song || Bad Apple ~ Juby Phonic (Touhou) 
Extra || He is often teased about his weight.

[center [+Slategrey  [size13 Name || Kaija 
Full Name || Kajia Kokamo 
Nickname || Kai 


Age / Birthday || Unknown he appears to be in his late teen to early twenties 
Species || Neko mix  / Or Inu depending on the role-play 
Hair color / Length || His hair is ebony color that it is kept around mid-length 
Eye color || Hazel grey


Gender || Male 
Sexual Orientation || Pansexual 
Loved one / relationship ||| Single
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[center [+orchid Name|| Fai 
Full-Name || Fai Valentine
Nick-Name: Fai-Fai , Val


Age and Birthday || She appears to be in her 20s / July 16th
Birthstone || Ruby 
Birth-Flowers ||
 
Species || Neko mix 
Sex || Female
Hair color and length ||
Eye color ||

Holding on to this.
[+darkred [center [size13 Name || Suiren 
Nick-Name || Ren, Red
Full-Name || Suiren Akane 


Age / Birthday || She appears to be in her early twenties / October 17th 
Species || Angel mix
Hair color / Length || Her hair is a pink color she keeps it long
Eye color || Emerald 


Sex || Female 
Sexual Orientation || Pansexual 
Love ones / Relationship status || Single 
Family / Children ||  She doesn't remember her parents much. She just remembers moving a lot when she was a girl. Her mother always told her to be wary of people with crimson eye. Of corse at the time vampires attacks were rare. She has no children 


Extra ~
Tattoos / Markings || She has small red wing marking on her back  no tattoos 
Piercing || Her ears
Story || She is constantly on the run from vampires. According to the legends an angel with red wings is suppose to be able to free vampires from the curse. The taste of her blood is delicious and irresistible. Suiren is often on the run from these monster. 
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[+Crimson  [center [size13 Name || Artemis 
Full Name || Artemis Moon 
Nick-names || Moon 


Age / Birthday || She appears to be in her 20s / February 1st 
Species || Bakeneko mix 
Hair color / Length || Her hair is white color that is kept long 
Eye color || Left eye is yellow / right is blue


Gender || Female 
Sexual Orientation || Pansexual 
Love one / Relationship status || Single 
Family / Children ||  / None


Height || 5'2' 
Weight / Build / Slender
Markings / Tattoos || She has a small moon marking under her left eye / No tattoos


Glasses || She does need them but she doesn't  often wear them 
Weapons ||  Unknown 
Clothing || She often wears dresses or skirts / She tent to wear more formal clothes

[size12 [#940580 [center Name || Anri 
Full-Name || Anri Kaneko
Nick-name || He doesn't have one 


Species || Human ?
Age / Birthday || 29 (but he doesn't look it) / December 19th 
Birth-stone / Birth-flower || Turquoise / Narcissus
Spirit-Animal || Leopard 


Sex || Male 
Sexual Orientation || Homosexual 
Loved One / Relationship status  || Single
Personality Traits ||  Alluring / Dangerous / Charming / Bitter


Hair color / Length || Originally blonde he has dyed it multiple shades of pink 
Eye color || Crystal blue 
Height ||  5'7'
Weight / Build ||  Slender


Glasses || No 
Markings / Tattoos ||  None / He had Leopard spots tattoo on his hips going down his legs. 
Piercings || "Well wouldn't you like to know..."

[+Navy [center Name || Ren 
Full-Name || Ren Ito
Nick-Name || Mutt


Species || Kitsune  Or wolf 
Sex || Male 
Sexual Orientation || Pan Sexual 
Loved One / Relationship Status ||  Single 
Family / Children || None 


Hair color / Length || His hair is ebony color but does turn silver when he in his  demon like form 
Eye color || Golden Yellow
Height || 5'8'
Weight / Build || Slender / Under weight


Glasses || None 
Piercings || Unknown 
Tattoo / Markings || He doesn't have any tattoo but he is covered in scars  


Weapons || Claws, teeth and his animal form
Song that best describes the character / Theme  ||  Disappear ~ Starset / God syndrome ~ Madame Macabre ft. Ashe


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[+Skyblue [center [size13 Name || Sora 
Full Name || Sora Kaneko 
Nick-Name || None 


Birthday / Age || 29  (but he doesn't look it ) / August 17th 
Species || Human?
Hair color / Length || His hair is mixture of blondes he keeps it about mid-length 
Eye color || Sapphire blue 

Gender || Male 
Sexual Preference || No preference 
Relationship status || Single
Family / Children ||  / No Children 
Personality traits || Quiet / Loner / kind-hearted 


Height || 5'8'
Weight || He appear to be slender and in shape 


Extra ~
Clothing || Semi-formal 
Piercings || His ears and naval 
Tattoos / Markings / Scars || Unknown

[H3 [center [+Orchid [center Sample Post ]]]

[+pink Now to try to write something sweet with a clouded mind....


I am sorry we couldn't get you something that you wanted, but I hope these pendants find you well. May your love stay true as the sun lights the moon. Congratulation you guys 
Love A & A

[size10 [+magenta What in the actually hell. You said I had two month to trait the cats not to scratch the sofa or the chair. It only been a month. Here you are treating to get them declawed. What the fuck. I still remember when we had Hank you made me shake your hand you didn't even give him a chance yet he was really good with his claws. Now what you going to take your chance back? Like my step mom said who care it just furniture it to be except when you have cats. It not like they do it every day. It because they learn from their fucking older sister who know better but does not give a shit when you yell at her. Why do I have to be the only one to train them. If you see them do why do you get the squirt bottle? I will not spend a fucking dime for them to get their claws removed. It is not cheep either I know that. I remember when Hank was going to be getting his removed it was like you were waiting for me to explode at you so you could say we had a deal. Well the deal is I have two months there one month left. I cry when Hank had his claws removed. You were probably want me to do that in front of you right? So you could get pissed about. Why don't we try the claw caps? What so wrong with them. I will spend the $60 to get it done. Part of me feel you are just waiting for a fight? You never had your talk with me. You're just egging me on right? Waiting for me to snap so you can play the victim right? Maybe I am just jumping to conclusions. You won't like it if my words ever do find their way out of my head....

Again I piss you off… why I didn’t accept your ride to work ? It not like you be able to pick me up. It not that I wouldn’t like it I just have no way home.

Ugh I’m sorry I forgot to double check your fucking phone. It’s not my job to worry about your phone it’s not like you do the same for me? Maybe you would if I asked.

At least you apologized. I’m sorry I didn’t notice. I’m having an off day.

What the hell... Aren't I suppose to be on my period. Because it sure seems like you are on your period.... Look I do want to spend time with you. I never asked you to wait up for me until I got home. I told you Yesterday that I was going to be mowing. Now you went to bed in anger. I hope you find some peace in your sleep.

I feel like things are building up to an over boil… I hope this feeling goes well at soon. 
Why does Carl hate me! I feel like he does!

[size10 Here is what is on my mind.


You told me the other day you feel like you are the only one who is trying? I see that you are trying really hard to spend time with me. I am sorry I am always worn out from work... I am sorry I get busy and make plans. I feel like everything around me is falling apart.... I am glad you finally told me how you felt why wait so long. Because now I feel every move I make is the wrong one... I can't say sorry enough to you. Look I see your trying but is what I not do trying? I haven't cook much for us lately because I have been busy lately or you are just to tired... I don't know how tomorrow is going to go when I tell you I have evening plans... Every couple goes through rough patches and dry spells.... I think we have just been stuck in one for a while... I hope we can make things better. Right now I don't see... I can't see it... I don't want things to end... 


You know I wait up to make sure you get up every night for work. I also always walk you to the door. I know you  brush that off like it is nothing... to me it is important...I just wish you understood that... I wish I could tell you all this or write this down for you... I can't. I will remind trapped in my old ways... until something breaks... 


That all I am good for right? 


I guess I should of never tried because you can't love someone who is  broken right? I am pretty damn broken maybe even broken beyond repair...

Ugh I’m sorry I didn’t hear your phone calls. I’m sorry to hear about the Z being out of gas. I can’t wait until that car is gone…because now I’m in trouble… because I couldn’t come to
Your aid

You are the responsible one huh? You do save most the money... I will admit to that... I am sorry I don't make enough...I am sorry you have to carry heavy burden on your shoulders all the time. Look you can raise the fucking rent... I just need to know so I don't go out shopping... I am sorry I am lazy and live a comfy choosy life while you suffer.... You aren't the only one who isn't happy.... 
You feel trapped you aren't... like you said you just wont pull the trigger.... You say you have to do all the house things. I am sorry you have to pay more on the house than I do. 


Why is everything crumbling and crashing down? I feel like a I am burden.... I just want to disappear or maybe if be best If was just dead. You could sell my shit maybe have a little more money buy you fucking car. You could have some fun right? If I wasn't around would you be happy?

Ugh. My schedule at work is changing.... I don't like the though of it changing. I was comfortable with it being 5-1. I don't like change and I am not looking forward to this one at all. I made friends at the station I was working at. Granted I think there were a few people who don't like me that much...

Envy, I am sorry if I made you feel guilty I wasn't trying too. You and Dream never really had a fair chance. You were forced to take him. I know you have been back for a while. I wasn't trying to say you have to keep him. I feel you are the only one who has given him a chance. But the damage is done... I'm sorry if I come of harsh but owning a cat is hard. Dream is just a little special, he need extra help. (Remember when I asked about his cat tree? Cats honestly need a space for them selves and places to hide. Other than under the bed what not. (That why I have like 4 tree in my house...) I understand being worried about him spraying. I am sorry I know you are stressed I wish you didn't feel this way about cats. Not all cats are like that. You always seemed like a dog person to me. That is what you have mostly been around so I can understand why you don't want cats again. I think your land lord are bs saying he need to be delcawed when you payed so much money for security deposit. Again I am really sorry if I stressed you out.

[size10 I... Don't know how to say goodbye to you. Grandma I don't want to yet. I feel so greedy saying this. I was hoping you were going to get better... I really thought you were. Every time I seen you got smaller and smaller.  I hope I get to see you before you leave...just don't want to say goodbye yet. You were such a strong woman you fought so hard. I know paradise is only a few steps away for you... I am sorry I didn't see you more... I regret that... I always hope you guy would live forever somewhere in the back of my mind... You aren't my real grandma but you were like one. Your my grandma best friend. You known me since I was a baby. You told me stories. I just wish you didn't have to go so soon. All I want you to know is that I love you... I am going to miss you... Thinking about how different things are going to be when you are gone. It is so hard to do. Nothing will be the same... going to grandma house is going to be so hard.